Why are we frequently being drawn away from God and resisting the Holy Spirit? Could it be that we think the thing drawing us will be more fulfilling than anything God has for us. Recently a new documentary has come out on the convicted serial killer Ted Bundy. In the documentary we hear him say at one point that he kept killing because the next time he would find fulfillment. Each time he killed he realized it wasn't the fulfillment he had hoped for. This same experience kept driving him over and over but he never found the fulfillment he was hoping for. Isn't sin like that for us all? We think it will fulfill us but it never really does but somehow we keep believing that next time it will. So we are strung along year after year repeating the same mistakes when the real fulfillment is right in front of us. It is not an experience, an event, a house, a car, an accomplishment, a job, a son or daughter, a spouse, an amount of money or anything else. The only thing that can truly fulfill us is God and there is nothing in this world or in your head that can substitute for Him. So why do we keep believing the lie? Why do we keep telling ourselves that next time it will be different? It never is. We are always left unfulfilled. We are hungry but what we are eating doesn't satisfy that hunger. We are drinking but we are still thirsty. One of my favorite verses for almost 40 years is, "I will pour water on him who is thirsty and floods upon the dry ground." Isaiah 44:3. All of us are hungry. All of us are thirsty but we are trying to satisfy that hunger and quench that thirst with things that leave us still hungry and thirsty and like the starving man we are wasting away. God asks in Isaiah 55:2, "Why do you spend money for what is not bread, and your wages for what does not satisfy?" A very good question don't you think? Is it because we don't want to humble ourselves and ask God? Are we too proud? Are we afraid He will ask for something in return that we may not want to give? Until we stop going everywhere except to God for fulfillment we will always lack and the great need that is in us all will go unfulfilled. Why don't we stop playing games and stop lying to ourselves that there is a substitute for God when we know deep down that there is not.